Small blessings May 27, 2008
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Dear Lord, it’s such a hectic day
With little time to stop and pray
For life’s been anything but calm
Since You called on me to be a mom
Running errands, matching socks
Building dreams with building blocks
Cooking, cleaning, and finding shoes
And other stuff that children lose
Gitting lids on bottled bugs
Wiping tears and giving hugs
A stack of last week’s mail to read
So where’s the quiet time I need?
Yet when I steal a minute, Lord
Just at the sink or ironing board
To ask the blessings of Your grace
I seen then, in my small one’s face
That you have blessed me all the while
And I stop to kiss
That precious smile
Good mom or bad mom? May 27, 2008
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I was watching my daughter sleep one night and I thought to myself, there could be nothing more sweeter or peacefull than a sleeping baby. Although it was quite an effort to get her to that state, but then a sudden feeling of guilt came over me. I thought about all the times I was impatient with her or how frustrated I became all too quickly or that I was a bad mother because I felt inadequate and that I wasn’t everything she needed me to be. I’m constantly worrying about whether she’s dressed warmly or that she’s dressed too warmly or if she’s content or if I’m being a good mother? I guess these are all universal fears especially for first timers like myself. While she’s alive and breathing I guess I’m doing the best I can or atleast know how.
Hmm..is this really me? May 24, 2008
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The joys May 22, 2008
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Yesterday was the worst..Everything just wasn’t the way it was supposed to be. It actually started going horribly wrong on Monday already. I woke up feeling like the the waether, cold and miserable, aching back and limbs, sore throat and a massive headache. But my life had to go on. I couldn’t let it stop for a day. Madison needed to be fed, Madison needed to be changed and off course Madison needed to be entertained(All of this without the help of a nanny).Through all this she was very pleasant actually and thankfully she still sleeps quite a bit during the day so I somehow managed to keep it together. But when you feel sick all you wanna do is SLEEP right?? Well thank God for friends because she really came through for me. She offered to fetch Madison for a little while so that I could sleep. After much deliberation (first time mom) I agreed, packed her bag, waited for Bron to fetch her, said my goodbyes and off to bed I went for a solid 3hrs sleep. Did me a world of good.
Back to yesterday..Usually Madison sleeps for abt 4-5hrs during the day and that’s when I either do what I want to do or what I must do like house work or sleep but yesterday she just refused to sleep. We were walking around in the yard, singing, dancing, playing with all different kinds of toys and still she displayed no signs of going to dream land. They call it growth spurts: sleeps very little and seems to drink almost every hour. To make matters worse Hubby came home late and had to leave again for church so there was no relieve until he came home which was after 10pm. By that time I had gotten out of the bath twice to pick up a crying baby whom I thought was sleeping when I put her down. We ended up having arestless night and right now she’s sleeping to make up for it, that’s why I’m writing typing this post. I’ve consoled myself with the fact that I won’t always have days and nights like that and that I have a very supportive husband. When she eventually wakes up just now I know she’ll give me a smile and it will make it worth it all.
Thoughts.. May 22, 2008
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“I looked on child-rearing not only as a work of love and duty but as a profession that was fully as interesting and challenging as any honourable profession in the world and one that demanded the best that I could bring it.”
Rose Kennedy
